I’m writing too much

Because that’s the only thing i can do

It’s obvious and painful 

Cause of course 

This is the only thing i can think of

I'm so frustrated that I can’t do anything 

I'm so frustrated with how life goes 

Life goes on

Oh, that’s so painful

please, how can this be so unbearable?

It feels so heavy, like bricks 

I could build something with this 

I swear, I would build you a refuge

And maybe stick it with tears 

I would try to make this more bearable for you

But I'm still so little 

And I'm not saying it like a joke 

I want to, and I need you to know 

That if I could do anything 

I would, I’ll, I'm going to, I’ll do anything for you 

Please, please

We are all waiting, 

and I know I have to keep my mouth shut

I wouldn't forgive myself for making this worse

But this is my way of going through this 

Writing, and yelling inside my guts

At least until we have a response 

I'm praying and trying to not think 

At least not that much

But I'm scare

I dreamed about you

I dreamed about this

And I just want...

I just want everything to be fine.

I need, 

we all need

We all wish, we all want, 

we all hope, 

The best possible outcome.

all these entries will be with me looking at the sky, praying to it, giving myself to it. 

all these entries, every single one of them, will be with me trying to attract lo mejor. I want that, eso es lo que quiero, al menos. 

So why does it seem like he's about to cry?

VAN.