i feel exhausted, sleepy 

and somehow warm

it’s so precious 

but also.. scary and 

confusing 

it can’t harm 

“u know about them?”

i remember being asked

what did i even say?

i didn’t know back then 

with heavy breaths 

i feel so scared 

i just want to feel this

sharp and real all-day

is it true tho?

is all this really happening?

These feelings and emotions 

i can sense my heart pound

faster and faster 

unsteady and loud 

i’ll ask again 

and please 

just-

please

i’m begging to the universe 

don’t u dare to take this away from me

don’t u dare to let anything ruin this

u can’t touch this

i’m saying this for millions 

or i think i am

i need this

and i-

can’t explain myself, right?

i’m sorry, 

perhaps i’m too aware that 

no one will ever understand 

maybe that’s why i’m writing this now

with this wave of heat washing over me

with the most endearing lyrics 

with that shiny smile in mind

and that sweet gentle voice 

flooding all around the floor 

i just-

i love music

i’m in awe listening to this while i write 

this is joy

this is life 

and it’s so fucking bright 

one more time

to you

whoever is reading now

did u understand?

inopia.